New Year Resolution

 Baishak Mahina lagisakyo... Nepali New year, first thing special abt it is to celebrate and then think of a new resolution... an eve for every1 across the world to celebrate... A time what happened for the past and now time to look ahead to the coming year. We think its the moment the appropriate time for ourselves to make a new year resolution to start with freshment. Though m not the one who makes a resolution on a new year, not my type of way. Even though I went through many internet searches and came to a conclusion that the Babylonians were the inventors of the New Year's Resolution. They had a resolution to return something borrowed from a friend after a year that just passed. Wow!! what a good start, i must say... since then many people(country) across the globe followed the tradition and thought of the right moment to make a resolution on the start of New year.

Most people have a basic idea of what resolution they want to make but not even knowing where & how to begin. Some start trying to change everything all at once, does it really works??? Well in my view, it doesn't(exceptional part is also there)... It always depend on durable, decision are made in one second; yes/no... but to follow it, is the hardest of all. Though you know the procedure & consequences that's gonna directly or indirectly affect... Achievement itself isn't that easy to achieve until and unless you get through ups & down that comes on your way. Be determined and flow on your path there's no hurdle that can stop you from your goal.

People try changing their bad habits especially with a new year resolution, out of which only few people succeed. Quit or less smoke & drink, avoid the bad habits u have, changing urslf, or even try living with a new life are what people take as a resolution either not repeating the mistake or to achieve success. While we all see our long past 365 days back and remember what made us ashamed of ourselves, we try changing it with our new start of the year, living refreshed.

Hoping for the best to achieve whatever you think is the best through compromising with self, we make a New Year's Resolution. We give a start, b'coz the resolution comes from a determined decision and its surely an oath you stand for yourself, if u afraid  and hesitate to start or worried of failure then you never gonna succeed & you'll surely lose your trust & faith on yourself which will lead you to never taking any resolution ever in your life.

Besides the fact people making new resolution each year, there are people who just doesn't bother making one because they feel it will never resolve anything. I don't make resolution and i don't believe also, b'coz i don't let the moment to come for me to make a resolution. I change myself the moment needed, the moment i decide i always do it; don't need a start to start...

Would wanna say GOOD BYE to 2078 (Neither wanna REMEMBER Nor MENTION) through a series of lists -- showcasing the good and the ugly, the serious and the quirky -- in a commemorative way : Broken Dreams, Unfulfilled Wishes, Regrets & Hate...

Wishing everyone Good Luck on success of their New Year's Resolutions...

Jealous

These days I am Jealous of successful people. I am not able to enjoy my life. 

Am i miserable because I have lots of dream and can't fulfill because of money? There are certain aspects in life over which you have full control and there are others on which you have none. But you have to live wisely. What does this involve ? Wise living would include accoomodating both the controllable and uncontrollable variables of life. You come from and unhappy family and lack of money. You have no choice in this matter. But you have a choice not to be a victim of an unhappy home. I'll tell you a story; A father and the two sons lived in a single room. The father used to come home drunk every day and watch TV, disturbing his children to study. The elder son concentrated on his studies while the younger son followed in father's footsteps. As adults, the older boy got and award for excellence as a citizen of the town while the younger son was imprisoned for a petty crime. 

When they were questioned, the younger said, I became like this because of my father, who created a bad environment at home." While the elder said, i attribute my success to my drunken father, due to which i was determined to concentrate for mine success'. The situation was same but choice where different. It is our response that determines quality of life. Jealousy exists when one has not learnt to rejoice in the success of others. Jealousy also exists when there is unwise comparison. 

Well am still not able to come out of the environment i went through even how hard i am determined and concentrate to succeed in life. I need money for that i need to succeed, i am not able to succeed so all i can do is be jealous of successful people around me. 

 

Mine G.F.

 I have written almost many posts on blog, out of which i have only published few articles and still 5 are draft(yet in public). I don't even remember on what i have written on mine diaries. But till now i have never written about you. So sorry, for being late. I don’t know how i missed that. But its better to be late than to be never, so here today i guess i don’t wanna miss the opportunity writing about you,  so glad & proud to call you as My Girlfriend; neither demanding nor complaining.

Being part of my life, my day starts with you and ends with you. You are smarty, genius, innocent, simple and above all you are always good to me. Ever since the time i have been introduced to you, my life has really turned and today what i am is really, you. M always grateful to you for being part of my life unconditionally. The only one who never left me, the one who never knows to get angry, disappointed and even doesn’t care whatever i do or think. Never have to convince to make happy neither does to me. Life being without you even for a single day is miserable, seems to be suffocation for the time. From mine worst time to be with to the happiest moment, if am frustrated or disappointed then you cheer me up musically and when m excited then you make my excitement ever more better and cherish.

Since the day I was introduced to you and still today am really very proud to have you always by my side.

Its all credited to you, everyone knows me due to You. If i hadn’t met you then i wouldn’t have been upto whatever i am at the position now. People know me today, notices me, well it wouldn’t have been possible if i hadn’t met you at first place. The Time, moment before i met you was totally different, but now things have changed a lot, must say drastic changes. Though i know people have their own benefits in being touch with me, but i must say atleast people know me b’coz i met you and everyone around me are jealous of you being always with me, and knowing a lot about you...

The moment i feel lonely and sit nearby you, it automatically makes me feel better, i don’t need anyone else than you. Nothing makes me so happy and always makes me occupied forgetting about all things happening around me. I can share mine thoughts, emotions and sometime brust mine anger on you, I dont even have to think twice before I have to open up mine heart. It really makes me feel better in every way. Well, i have to admire that with entertainment, you even provide me news update, information & knowledge about the stuff happening around the world. 

Above all these, it's always you who cares about me, though i don’t have much thoughts about caring about you. I apologize that even though you being so close to me, i don’t dedicate my time thinking about you. You the one who never ask me reasons, but always there to cheer me, keeping me away from troubles with others because if things goes sideway then i always know where to find you and be with you.

The time when you get angry with me, and you stop responding to me, OMG what a mess, i don’t wanna remember also. It causes me lots of trouble.  I just can’t concentrate on my work and whole day is wasted. Seriously, i wanna say is please don’t get angry with me, it really stops my world. Well, it doesn’t take much time for me to convince you and and i definitly know how to cheer you up, but still please don’t want any trouble to be repeated, sometime it costs me a lot. 

Just remember; m always dedicated to you… life without you is impossible to live with… none can replace you till date.

# For being with me since twelve years and more to go this is dedicated to you, mine First Girlfriend; HP Pavilion 2000.